That's the way I must trust

I regret my decision while I have a big chance.

I always compare with everyone and my seance of inferiority increased as years passed.

I'm getting ugly because of ED and raising my weight, lol

What I am doing? What is my objection ?

I always want say sorry for me when I was a junior high school student.

Always envy my friend or someone just crossed me.

I even envy past of myself as well

I hated myself

I lost myself 

I thought I have no worth anymore

I thought how happy I can dead.

But today, I ralized thorough meet many people  that my decision is not wrong and this is what I have to lead.

Actually I made many excuse about my decision that I'm not convinced so far.

But the thing was,

I encounter lots of precious person.

I want believe this way is not wrong.

I want to believe myself.

This is the first time I really thought about that.

Never forget the pleasure to who I met today and so far.